Monday, March 26, 2012

I Need an Intervention...........

................THIS is what a year and a half off of work has done to me...............not good people.....I have so completely lost my way..........For two years i found my rhythm........i was in the 'ZONE'. When i lost 80 pounds over 2 years it was almost.........almost easy.........but when i lost that frame of mind i lost it big time........You know i still remember what that frame of mind IS.....what my mind set needs to be...........but i cannot seem to get there............again.......I try and try and try and i'll do good for a week then the weekend rolls around and i lose it.........everyone else around seems to eat what ever they want and i just got so tired of being the odd man out. But now i'm tired of not fitting in my pants anymore...........i'm tired of being heavy again and not liking my reflection..........but where do i find that willpower again when i don't even know where it came from the first time?? I intend on using this move to CA as a game changer....a life changer......don't ask me exactly what that means but "If you always do what you've always done , you'll always get what you've always gotten" or something like that...........Somethings gotta give, something has got to change....Lets hope it waits for me in CA. We drive out of Texas this coming Friday!!!! Jinx always does his best to keep me amused............yes he is helping me make the bed in this picture. Those four little bumps are his four feet under the sheet while i'm trying to make the bed............i'll put a blanket on top of that and a comforter and he'll still be there all four feet in the air............he cracks me up! I'm still waiting for the MailArt to reach the recipients so i can't show that to you but this is a new sketch. Like my tree??? Its on the side of rock cliff i guess you call it and a castle will be built into the rock......well at least thats whats in my head we'll see what ends up on the paper........:) It may be a little while before i post again. Probably not until settled in CA. Wednesday we pick up the moving truck, load it Wed and Thurs then we drive out by noon Friday after clearing the apartment.............here we goooooooo!

7 comments:

Katiejane said...

Just keep walking, honey. It will come off. Just throw out the scales and walk.
Good luck on your big move. I hope all goes well.
My cat does that with the bed too. Wonder what's up with that? I guess they like to go 'camping'.
Lovely start to a new painting.

Murphy said...

Stop worrying about what others can or cannot do. Take the focus off them and put it on you! What do you REALLY want? Do you want health and fitness? Then just do it. Just take small CONSISTENT steps in the right direction. Then just keep on keepin' on!!

Carol

Jan said...

Love the card you sent Corinne at Dosfishes. Beautiful work you do. Good luck with your weightloss program. I'll bet you already look great and don't even know it.

kimmie said...

I try to focus on how I feel and not on how I look. Remembering how good it feels to get out and breathe and get my blood pumping is what gets me out every time. If I think about how I look - it makes me want to have a cookie instead. A move sounds like a good thing to jumpstart your goal .... you go girl!

Shrink to Fit said...

Love the new sketch. Trees are my favorite.

You have a lot going on with this move. Once you get settled, you will get your rhythm back and the zone will find you.

I wish you a smooth move (lol, that sounds wrong) but you know what I mean :)

Corrine said...

California fresh air and even temps will get you walking again. Jinx is so silly, my Ryder would do something like that and he's a dog. New tree and curling roots is coming along nicely. xox

Whimsey Creations said...

Moving all those boxes and stuff might help get you started again! I'll be crossing my fingers and toes that you have a smooth trip.